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November 09 i'm usually in bed at this time~with three alarm clocks in different corners of my dorm...
i'm finally up before noon!
...
physically...
p.s. just blogging to wake myself up~ October 14 falling...or...fallen?it is only after i reach the bottom do i realize that i've fallen... October 09 wake up...i'm wasting my time...and it's not like i can't help it...it's just that...i won't... September 27 no place like home...竟然在科大海边找回了家的感觉……最近不断的会游离到10年前的查尔斯顿...突然发现原来...that's where i belong... sense and sensibility...i have neither...for once, i feel like writing a real diary entry today. tmr i'll be goin home, into the peace and quiet of family life. too much excitement, too much fun...and all the pressure sufforcating me...too much wasted time. so i've been doin the wrong actions and saying the wrong things...i wish that i can take everything back......yet i have neither the sense nor sensibility to say sorry...
so i'm going home...to find myself...deep into the drawers...somewhere...
and you suddenly realize...that you've been stuck in the same place for over a month. you want to go out...and...breathe...to be in the bustling crowds and feel truly alone...
i can feel the frustration exploding in my head...screams...sirens...
and now...i simply just don't care... September 23 me and myselfme and myself...
confined,
isolated,
into my world of nothingness...
it's amazing what state of mind
these winds bring to me...
reaching out to me
through cracks of the windowpane...
panting...begging...
...urging
just me and myself...
a cup of jasmine,
a novel,
and some debussy...
to keep me from the temptation...
to run away with the wind,
and disappear in a flurry. September 20 discord...i feel like strings tuned to 440 for baroque...
...out of tune...
all i need is to loosen the peg...
but how?
May 17 like always...like always, i want to know who i can call when i have the feeling...to just talk...
and for that person to call me, for the same reason...
is it really just me? that for so many years...and so many places...i've always just been that passerby...someone from dinner, someone from class, or that someone across the hall...
...maybe i'm just homesick...or maybe i should just accept it... April 29 artificialpeople tend to be artificial these days...
crafting themselves into someone they thought others would like...
on the outside...
time doesn't fly...
it burns into a radiance...
then into a pale smoke, drifting...thinner...fading into the air...
until...
nothing is left...
except the lightest smell of ashes...
i still smell those old days...
...do you?
you've faded away with the breeze...
and become the stranger i now see...
through pictures others have taken...
artificial to the sight...
January 19 返“空间”~my last blog...2007年10月19日。。。
过了整整三个月……
in those past three months...
一个学期结束了……
寒假结束了……
2007年结束了……
……
but what did i do? what did i learn?? what did i gain???
October 05 sunrise...again~~~原来日出是5：45……之前日出比较晚可能因为阴天？
it's this late again...
i really like this time when everyone is asleep and just me enjoying the peace...
it's beautiful with dawn touching the surface of the water gingerly...
and the light sea breeze...
and that lone sailboat...
and those streetlights daring each other to flick off...
everyone breathing in tempo...afraid to break the rhythm of silence...
...
only me... September 24 week 4, mid-autumn and national day...very festive today...it's amazing that this is actually the first mid-autumn celebration i've ever had...without family...but still a huge 5-hour reunion...（以前就是和家里随便分一个月饼就算过节了）……i guess it's like that when we have too much freedom and so many friends...and so many things that we laugh at instead of shudder~
had too much excitement today...呵呵……which means i'm totally wasted and power off now..最近睡眠有些不足……支气管又有点问题~开始吃消炎药了……the good news:这周三和下周一放假阿~i get to miss the two most busy days!(language days)...the bad news:这意味着更多作业……
明天在香港的师大附中同学聚会……去80%的人！which equals 4 people~ 呵呵……我们4个同时还是初中同学呢~kinda excited again...see if the 台风will cause too much clouds and no moon...wish us luck~! September 20 nearly end of week three...suddenly i realize...that i picked the wrong major...
i'm terrfied of business...and flunking engineering...
...
but i'm also not trying...
procrastination is such a bad habit~~~
September 09 end of week one...已经上了一周的课了……the biggest problem——time...
parties and orientations and more parties (sometimes they trick you into saying it's a "gathering" or "social dinner")..everyday...i don't even have time to finish hw...
不过还是很喜欢这里的……我一个人住有海景的三人间（两个室友很少住……作息也不同）…房间也有免费上网的插头…晚上四点才睡觉也没人说（可能因为人家在打麻将)…认识了来自世界不同角落的朋友（今年international students 好多！）……觉得自己的oral english又进步了不少~
……就是……老师都有口音啊……一周课听下来自己的英文+中文越来越……变扭……尤其是普通话……好像没儿话音了……呵呵~
好久没写这么多中文了……i think i'll just switch back to english...feels comfortable these days~~~
just hope everyone is having as great a time as i am... August 02 HK昨天來的香港……幾個感覺~
1）熱！香港本地人自己也抱怨……怎門今年沒颱風！？ 一夏天沒雨啊:'(
2）外面那麽熱+市内的空調調在15度以下=感冒
3）我的廣東話……他們的普通話……所有人的英文……
4）繁體！
5）電話費……至少6個公司在競爭……怎麽還是一條本地短信0.5港幣……一條發到大陸的短信1.4~
6）交通費還行……主要是因爲學會刷卡的時候不看扣除的費用……
7）可惜現在的香港本地人……也學會過馬路不看紅燈……機年前大家還遵守呢~~~
8）……不過電梯靠右站還是保留的……
9）當然還是很佩服這裡lots of things 的發達……
……
n）5 years...
July 25 聚会s~7月19号-23号 —— 高中
15人（于梦佳、王旭坤、左丹、冯晓菲、何晓桦、洪锦铧、徐晓航、徐戈、王雨辰、戎熔、陈绍新、李嘉昊、金然、胡晨旭、张毅滕）
长白山……看天池那天幸运的没有雾……（当然导致全班集体被强光灼伤…我确信男生这两天会脱一层皮）
共坐了21个小时的火车、大概14个小时的汽车、打了近10个小时的纸牌、玩儿了大约4个小时的杀人、走/爬了8个小时山路、乘了1个小时缆车、1个小时船……（时间是粗略算的…若有问题可以直接提出来）……
……
but 一切很开心……
7月24号——初中
20人（王晓冉、田梦涵、叶婧静、冯艺、何晓桦、尚达、涂诗楠、薛佳伟、王勇、王超、王子伦、王雨辰、冯慎行、邹杨、张舒、张毅滕、赵聪、胡晨旭、韩旭、谭明皓）
11点学校对面三千里
14点-15点学校门前树下杀人+升级
15:30-21:30 6个小时的ktv……我的耳朵……不能这样唱《死了都要爱》吧~
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但还是开心…… |
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