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November 19 post-bday thank-yous这两天比较叛逆以及无助...但是向知情者们保证...我还是那个hi点很低的乐天派...i'll make it till the holidays!....
生日……竟然已经到了不想过生日的年龄……不想在cfront宴请20多个passerby吃糖水...不想在某个common room举办吹水会...
感谢你们给了我 the best birthday party...在最繁忙的时候抽身陪我“逃出校园”……有你们这样的朋友真好……just being there means a lot!
感谢saki & billy：吃了顶级自助餐还要陪我吃火锅自助；穿正装还要等我1个多小时+跑了几个地方 for "奔三" & 黑森林。。。you guys are the best!
>感谢saki: 最佳饭友！海景房book友！and every同hea有关的死党~ (那天穿高跟鞋辛苦了。。。请你的正装干洗）~
>感谢billy: thanx for listening to my complaints...thanx for helping me find the ends of my mental tangle~~~
感谢阿黄：our friendship 经常“走神”~~~ but you've always been there since we've known each other...很喜欢bb草。。。一直想给宿舍增加一点绿色（羡慕你和jenny的“学长”“小叶”“小旋”许久了）。。。可算有生命在宿舍陪我度过周末了！and you actually found g-clef earrings...! cheers！~
感谢布丁：一直很关心我。。。您的饼干给了我新的熬夜目标！
感谢冠冠和二哥：你们给我提供的摄影素材……i'll cherish forever~~~
还有魔王...
同时感谢jenny: you actually changed your msn status for me!...best buds~
and julia: 阿hea经常陪我去图书馆“学习”~~~
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and of course my family...for staying up so late just to be the first to call me and break the news...and for always being there~~~ November 17 emotion thermometer resultsyou are in extreme anxiety, extreme stress, extreme pressure, and extreme depression...
November 09 i'm usually in bed at this time~with three alarm clocks in different corners of my dorm...
i'm finally up before noon!
...
physically...
p.s. just blogging to wake myself up~ November 03 -today...i'm just tired...but no matter - it's my favorite time of year...
p.s. happy birthday julie... October 14 falling...or...fallen?it is only after i reach the bottom do i realize that i've fallen... October 09 wake up...i'm wasting my time...and it's not like i can't help it...it's just that...i won't... September 27 no place like home...竟然在科大海边找回了家的感觉……最近不断的会游离到10年前的查尔斯顿...突然发现原来...that's where i belong... sense and sensibility...i have neither...for once, i feel like writing a real diary entry today. tmr i'll be goin home, into the peace and quiet of family life. too much excitement, too much fun...and all the pressure sufforcating me...too much wasted time. so i've been doin the wrong actions and saying the wrong things...i wish that i can take everything back......yet i have neither the sense nor sensibility to say sorry...
so i'm going home...to find myself...deep into the drawers...somewhere...
and you suddenly realize...that you've been stuck in the same place for over a month. you want to go out...and...breathe...to be in the bustling crowds and feel truly alone...
i can feel the frustration exploding in my head...screams...sirens...
and now...i simply just don't care... September 23 me and myselfme and myself...
confined,
isolated,
into my world of nothingness...
it's amazing what state of mind
these winds bring to me...
reaching out to me
through cracks of the windowpane...
panting...begging...
...urging
just me and myself...
a cup of jasmine,
a novel,
and some debussy...
to keep me from the temptation...
to run away with the wind,
and disappear in a flurry. September 20 discord...i feel like strings tuned to 440 for baroque...
...out of tune...
all i need is to loosen the peg...
but how?
May 17 like always...like always, i want to know who i can call when i have the feeling...to just talk...
and for that person to call me, for the same reason...
is it really just me? that for so many years...and so many places...i've always just been that passerby...someone from dinner, someone from class, or that someone across the hall...
...maybe i'm just homesick...or maybe i should just accept it... April 29 artificialpeople tend to be artificial these days...
crafting themselves into someone they thought others would like...
on the outside...
time doesn't fly...
it burns into a radiance...
then into a pale smoke, drifting...thinner...fading into the air...
until...
nothing is left...
except the lightest smell of ashes...
i still smell those old days...
...do you?
you've faded away with the breeze...
and become the stranger i now see...
through pictures others have taken...
artificial to the sight...
January 19 返“空间”~my last blog...2007年10月19日。。。
过了整整三个月……
in those past three months...
一个学期结束了……
寒假结束了……
2007年结束了……
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but what did i do? what did i learn?? what did i gain???
October 05 sunrise...again~~~原来日出是5：45……之前日出比较晚可能因为阴天？
it's this late again...
i really like this time when everyone is asleep and just me enjoying the peace...
it's beautiful with dawn touching the surface of the water gingerly...
and the light sea breeze...
and that lone sailboat...
and those streetlights daring each other to flick off...
everyone breathing in tempo...afraid to break the rhythm of silence...
...
only me... September 24 week 4, mid-autumn and national day...very festive today...it's amazing that this is actually the first mid-autumn celebration i've ever had...without family...but still a huge 5-hour reunion...（以前就是和家里随便分一个月饼就算过节了）……i guess it's like that when we have too much freedom and so many friends...and so many things that we laugh at instead of shudder~
had too much excitement today...呵呵……which means i'm totally wasted and power off now..最近睡眠有些不足……支气管又有点问题~开始吃消炎药了……the good news:这周三和下周一放假阿~i get to miss the two most busy days!(language days)...the bad news:这意味着更多作业……
明天在香港的师大附中同学聚会……去80%的人！which equals 4 people~ 呵呵……我们4个同时还是初中同学呢~kinda excited again...see if the 台风will cause too much clouds and no moon...wish us luck~! September 20 nearly end of week three...suddenly i realize...that i picked the wrong major...
i'm terrfied of business...and flunking engineering...
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but i'm also not trying...
procrastination is such a bad habit~~~
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