makes no difference

这两天比较叛逆以及无助...但是向知情者们保证...我还是那个hi点很低的乐天派...i'll make it till the holidays!....

 

生日……竟然已经到了不想过生日的年龄……不想在cfront宴请20多个passerby吃糖水...不想在某个common room举办吹水会...

 

感谢你们给了我 the best birthday party...在最繁忙的时候抽身陪我“逃出校园”……有你们这样的朋友真好……just being there means a lot!

 

感谢saki & billy：吃了顶级自助餐还要陪我吃火锅自助；穿正装还要等我1个多小时+跑了几个地方 for "奔三" & 黑森林。。。you guys are the best!

>感谢saki: 最佳饭友！海景房book友！and every同hea有关的死党~ (那天穿高跟鞋辛苦了。。。请你的正装干洗）~

>感谢billy: thanx for listening to my complaints...thanx for helping me find the ends of my mental tangle~~~

感谢阿黄：our friendship 经常“走神”~~~ but you've always been there since we've known each other...很喜欢bb草。。。一直想给宿舍增加一点绿色（羡慕你和jenny的“学长”“小叶”“小旋”许久了）。。。可算有生命在宿舍陪我度过周末了！and you actually found g-clef earrings...! cheers！~

感谢布丁：一直很关心我。。。您的饼干给了我新的熬夜目标！

感谢冠冠和二哥：你们给我提供的摄影素材……i'll cherish forever~~~

还有魔王...

 

同时感谢jenny: you actually changed your msn status for me!...best buds~

and julia: 阿hea经常陪我去图书馆“学习”~~~

 

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and of course my family...for staying up so late just to be the first to call me and break the news...and for always being there~~~

you are in extreme anxiety, extreme stress, extreme pressure, and extreme depression...

 

with three alarm clocks in different corners of my dorm...

i'm finally up before noon!

...

physically...

 

p.s. just blogging to wake myself up~

today...i'm just tired...but no matter - it's my favorite time of year...

 

p.s. happy birthday julie...

are there any motivators other than no time?

正式将自己的共享空间更名为"makes no difference..."

...because it's true...

it is only after i reach the bottom do i realize that i've fallen...

i'm wasting my time...and it's not like i can't help it...it's just that...i won't...

竟然在科大海边找回了家的感觉……最近不断的会游离到10年前的查尔斯顿...突然发现原来...that's where i belong...

for once, i feel like writing a real diary entry today. tmr i'll be goin home, into the peace and quiet of family life. too much excitement, too much fun...and all the pressure sufforcating me...too much wasted time. so i've been doin the wrong actions and saying the wrong things...i wish that i can take everything back......yet i have neither the sense nor sensibility to say sorry...

so i'm going home...to find myself...deep into the drawers...somewhere...

and you suddenly realize...that you've been stuck in the same place for over a month. you want to go out...and...breathe...to be in the bustling crowds and feel truly alone...

i can feel the frustration exploding in my head...screams...sirens...

 

and now...i simply just don't care...